Sunday, October 25th, 2009
Im head over heels for him and yet I doubt he feels the same way.
Archive for the ‘Confessions’ Category
Sunday, October 25th, 2009
I Love You . . . I just needed to say this to you before I die.
I hope you read this and know its from me.
<3
Sunday, October 25th, 2009
I’m changing my career path after one and a half years of university. I hate the courses I’m in now, and I want to choose a career that’s in God’s plan for me. But I’m scared that God wants me to stay in my current program. I also haven’t told my parents about my plans to change my program because I’m scared about how they will react.
Sunday, October 25th, 2009
wow.. last night was the first time in a LONG time that I have had so much fun and laughed so hard. I forgot how that felt to just forget about everything even for a day. Thank you Lord 
Saturday, October 24th, 2009
I will admit that all these confessions about cutting were from one person.. me. Not proud of it.
Saturday, October 24th, 2009
I think about every single thing I eat and think it will make me fat…Im a normal woman, but Everyday I work out at the gym hoping to look different because I think no guy I will have an attraction to – will love my body.
Friday, October 23rd, 2009
I am in love with a married man and had to leave my church because of it. Nothing happened but I still can’t stop thinking about him.
Friday, October 23rd, 2009
I think that I don’t deserve to be married because of my mental illness. I can’t receive love in a healthy way.
Friday, October 23rd, 2009
As much as I try to convince myself otherwise, I feel as though I go to church to meet someone first and for God second. I hate this.
Friday, October 23rd, 2009
I can’t pretend that my life is together, it’s not, and i have been to some of the places that people mention above, but i can say that each and every one of your struggles, conflicts, hard aches, and sometimes even victories ( even if they seem insignificant) are held close to me. I am praying for you. I wish i had some way to reach out to each and every one of you and give you a hug, and to listen, to be there.
Friday, October 23rd, 2009
I love her. She does not know this. No one knows. I have loved her for years. Every time I get the courage to do something about it. I never do. I know too that we would make a beautiful couple. She might even know this as well. I live a lie everyday.
I have a girlfriend . . . and this is not her.
Friday, October 23rd, 2009
dear god i prey for every one on this list i prey that you take them and show them the right way of always looking to u i prey for myself and my sin i fell like ihave screw up alot in the sins i have done i fell like i am doing better but there is still work to be done in my life i prey for all my friends that are close to me god is always there i prey for my furture wife that i dont now how it is yet but i do pry for that god just help me with my firends that i have for gotten about. and last thing i prey for phile as he is speeking this week he has help me though the bad times and the good times a think god for people like phile as he speek about the reall stuff that happens in everybody lives
Friday, October 23rd, 2009
I have an eating disorder but am to scared to tell anyone or get help because I keep thinking I can overcome it myself with the help of God… but I keep screwing up
Thursday, October 22nd, 2009
I wish that Phil would talk about cutting once since there are so many people on here who talk about doing it. Maybe it would help.
Wednesday, October 21st, 2009
“Then Jesus told his disciples a parable to show them that they should always pray and not give up” Luke 18:1 Give everything to Jesus, he is the one who created us, was crucified for us, how can we say we can run our lives better. Pray, have faith. I don’t know who it is that writes about cutting, Jesus was cut, for you, he took the pain for you, Gave his life so you don’t have to. He is waiting with his arms wide open for you, for all of us sinners, I also had harsh thoughts, but I overcame them with God’s Grace and Love. Do not give up hope, lay everything at his feet, do not try to hide anything from him. “But God demonstrates his love for us in this: While we were yet sinners, Christ Died for us.” Rom. 5:8 His Grace and Love is all we need.
Wednesday, October 21st, 2009
I’m dealing with lust issues and bulimia at the same time. And thought that I had dealt with it a long, long time ago.
Wednesday, October 21st, 2009
I’m in Bible college, studying to become a missionary, and I feel completely disconnected from everything and everyone. The more I learn about ministry, the more something in me screams “INADEQUATE” and I want to run away. I’m worried I’ll screw this up, fail, and watch my life fall apart. All while disappointing God and my family. I don’t know what to do…
Tuesday, October 20th, 2009
I cut God out of my life and started to fall into temptation and found myself in a messy relationship with my boyfriend of several years. Instead of turning my problems over to God, I ended up cheating on my boyfriend in an attempt to the fill the empty void I was feeling. It took a hard hard lesson to realize that the empty void was where God and my faith should of been.
Tuesday, October 20th, 2009
I cut on saturday night.. its the first time in months that I have cut.. I gave up.. Sunday, I decided that I should leave the church and not look back..
Tuesday, October 20th, 2009
Is it bad that I answered yes to all the questions the previous person posted as a confession?
Monday, October 19th, 2009
I’ve been going to church my whole life. Recently I’ve found myself more and more jaded towards Christianity. I am feeling more and more like saving myself for marriage, abstaining from alcohol etc has caused me to miss out on so much that life seems to offer everyone else.
I’m tired of being the single guy. Tired of wondering what what is wrong with me / wondering what I’ve been doing wrong. I’m tired of watching my friends find their soul mates, getting married and I’m tired of loosing my best friends because of it. I’m so tired of being so lonely as a result.
The worst of it all is that I know perfectly well that the reason why I am single is because I’ve lost all faith in God’s ability to provide me with someone that is a good fit, and despite that understanding, I am still angry with him for that very reason.
Friday, October 16th, 2009
I’m 27 and have never dated. I wonder if I will be single for my life. I keep telling myself that I wouldn’t have this desire for marriage if I’m not supposed to get married. But I don’t really believe that.
Friday, October 16th, 2009
I have hated church for most of my life. I thought about killing myself when I was 16 immediately after a large church rally. I often wonder why I still go to church when I feel so much like an outcast. I feel like walking out at church services many times and often feel like a nobody. I feel like an imposter at times. going to church and feeling like an outsider. I often wonder if anyone cared if i quit church altogether.
Wednesday, October 14th, 2009
I cant do this anymore, Im so overwhelmed. I havent found a job yet and my step dad told me today that if I dont find a job within a week, I better start looking for a place to live. God, why wont you answer me? Im so angry and Im passed the point where I want to just end it all.
Wednesday, October 14th, 2009
This week absolutely everything has gone wrong. My mom and her sister are in a fight that I’m caught in the middle of. My friends have turned on me in a time where I need them most, and at 9:07 at night, I can’t find one person who will listen to me and help me. I have talked to God and asked him to help me, and I feel as if he’s making me wait for a reason. Through all this I haven’t cut myself in 5 weeks. I’m trying to be proud of myself, but it feels all for nothing. I’m sick and tired of this, and sometimes I feel like it’d be so much easier if I just died. I’m not suicidal, I just don’t want to be here anymore.
Tuesday, October 13th, 2009
I am saving my virginity for marriage, but I’m frightened I won’t be appreciated in my prime if I do.
Monday, October 12th, 2009
As much as I want to have really close friends and to be in a relationship with someone I only let people get so close before I start backing away. I’m scared of being the one that’s left behind when they leave.
Monday, October 12th, 2009
I was sexually abused as a young girl and find it hard to trust God. How will I know who a “good” guy is and if I can trust them?
My mom has been married and divorced three times, How can you trust men after seeing that?
I’m scared to love a man.
Monday, October 12th, 2009
I thought I was okay with everything but I still hate her for what she did to me, and how our whole friendship was based on a huge lie.
Sunday, October 11th, 2009
I’m afraid that I will only ever love someone who cannot love me back. Why did he leave? …and more importantly, why can’t I stop wanting him back?
Sunday, October 11th, 2009
I feel as if I cant do anything right in my dads eyes. He wanted a son and thats what he got so for 22 years of my life, I have never had a proper father-daughter relationship with my dad and it saddens me. Most times, I feel im just a failure to him.
Saturday, October 10th, 2009
I think my dad ruined me and I blame him for who I am. I think wont realize how wrong I am until he is gone and its too late. I want to forgive him but I cant let go.
Saturday, October 10th, 2009
I think everyone points and laughs at me because of how I look. Truth be told everyone did point and laugh at me when I was young. I don’t think any girl could love me for who I am. Its hard for me to trust anyone…
Saturday, October 10th, 2009
Sometimes there is so much chaos and mess at home, I will work extra shifts or longer hours, just so I don’t have to go home. But my husband doesn’t want to talk about it with me.
Friday, October 9th, 2009
I feel so angry with god when Im feeling really lonely…I feel like Im always the single gal..everyone has met a great person to share there life with..I was molested when I was little and have had problems trusting men my whole life and feel God should bless me already with someone super amazing to make up for my troubles
Friday, October 9th, 2009
I am so in love with God, and find it frustrating to articulate to my loved ones what God has to offer. I do not want to let my loved ones down, and constantly ask for the strenth and guidance to acheive this.
Friday, October 9th, 2009
I know God loves me but I can’t get over my feelings of having disappointed him. I cheated. I lied. I looked at porn. You’d expect more from a girl but I feel I’m only human.
Thursday, October 8th, 2009
I have always felt alone. Even around Family, friends, I am not close to anyone. Afraid to trust. But sunday night God was there! He revealed to me that HE is with me, HE Loves ME, and HE will ALWAYS be there. Even if I don’t “FEEL” anything. When I get tired and can’t go on, he carries me.
THERE IS HOPE DON’T GIVE UP!!!!! HE can and will reveal himself to you too! HOPE, ALWAYS HOPE!!!
Tuesday, October 6th, 2009
Im tired of feeling this way…depressed, lonely, lost… but I dont know how to ask for help because Im afraid what people may think of me.
Tuesday, October 6th, 2009
I am not scared of anything in my line of work, except that I feel alone just about every night, because I feel broken and used. I have felt this way for a long time, I just don’t know if I can trust or even love again, when it seems like everytime I want to be close things shatter.
Monday, October 5th, 2009
I keep going through the motions of ‘church’. Each Sunday I say I’ll change and be that stronger Christian I’m supposed to be but I’m still waiting.
Monday, October 5th, 2009
I think alot about suicide and taking my life which at times I feel like a coward because Im too afraid to actually take my life. I wish I would go in my sleep or maybe cut too deep one day..
Monday, October 5th, 2009
Every Sunday I decide to stop being apathetic towards my relationship with god, and every monday I become apathetic.
Sunday, October 4th, 2009
My brother hates God and says that He isn’t real. He says that Hell is society’s way of trying to make children afraid of being bad, and that Christianity is purely hope for a bunch of people who don’t have anything else to hope for.
Sometimes I think that he might be right.
Saturday, October 3rd, 2009
I have siblings who have stopped believing in God. I’m scared to talk to them because sometimes, I wonder which one of us is right…
Thursday, October 1st, 2009
I’ve never felt any connection with God. I keep hoping that going to church and going through the motions would give me that sense of peace that I need to know God is with me. I still feel the same way about my faith I did 4 years ago. Sometimes I feel like I should just walk away from Christanity completly.
Thursday, October 1st, 2009
I have alot I want to confess but am too afraid that someone will know it’s me.
Wednesday, September 30th, 2009
At times, more than I should , I wish I wasnt alive. I love god but sometimes I let my emotions overpower.
Tuesday, September 29th, 2009
When I go to sunday nights, I sit there and think.. If I walked out this door and never looked back, would anyone notice?
Tuesday, September 29th, 2009
i do not praise GOD enough as i promise GOD come to sunday youth service every sunday. the one said inadequate in stage. GOD know you are worshipping HIM. worship team, well done.
Tuesday, September 29th, 2009
When there is silence after I pray, I thought I was abandoned by GOD. How damb I was. HE is with me all the time.
Tuesday, September 29th, 2009
I struggle with porn, but want to stop and can’t!
I want to change but feel like I go in circles! NO END!!
Tuesday, September 29th, 2009
I know Jesus died for my sins but still find myself sinning. I don’t even try to not sin. I am a hypocrit!!
Tuesday, September 29th, 2009
You’ll never know how much trust you broke and how bad you hurt me, but i’m going to pretend i’m fine. Cause I know one day I will be.
Tuesday, September 29th, 2009
I’m not ready to let go of a girl I dated a while ago, I havn’t even dated since then because I can still feel me holding her hand some nights.
Tuesday, September 29th, 2009
On the outside I wear a mask pretending im okay.. on the inside Im suffocating trying to cry out for help but all that comes out is silence.
Monday, September 28th, 2009
I wish I could know who wrote the confession about cutting so I could help them. I confessed to God that I was cutting for years, and he told me it was time to stop. I stopped and I’m never looking back.
Monday, September 28th, 2009
Every time I get on the stage, I feel inadequate, until I remember that the only one I’m doing this for is God.
Monday, September 28th, 2009
I forgot that I was loved by God, and I fell down and looked everywhere for love even though God was right there.
Monday, September 28th, 2009
I still find myself thinking about the man i fell in love with who never existed, and hate myself for it more each day.
Monday, September 28th, 2009
I’m human too. And I feel like doing something when you know you shouldn’t be is worse than finding out after the fact it wasn’t right. “Sinning on purpose” so terrible, but will it be enough to stop me?